Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I'm Ba-ack...

I know what you're all thinking.  Three blog posts in a week and a half?!  This is insanity!  I'm trying folks.  I'm trying to get back in to the groove of things.  I'm trying to bring back the blogosphere.

This guy knows how I feel.

My life has been super crazy lately.  SUPA CRA-RAZY.  Honestly.  I think I've become chemically imbalanced.  I'm dealing.  It's okay.  This year has been so overcharged with changes for me that I'm surprised I've made it this far without just crawling off and hiding in that guy's moustache.  ------------------------->

Seriously, though.  I want to put a huge shout-out to my friends and family for being so supportive of me over the last few months of craziness.  I appreciate it and I know I haven't always been easy to deal with.  I thank you. 

What have I been up to?  Working.  Sleeping... or rather NOT sleeping.  I've always had a bout of insomnia but I think I only sleep 2-3 hours a night most nights anymore and I very rarely partake in my favorite past-time anymore... NAPPING!  What else have I been up to?  Oh, hanging with my dog... getting used to having a clean house with no one to pick up after anymore, actually spending time with friends instead of staying holed away in the attic.  That last part has been really nice and a huge change from the sheltered life I've lived the past few years.  I like it A LOT.  Lately my life has been super consumed with... TORTILLAS.  I've been helping out that fine dude at Tacopocalypse in the tortilla department and I have the burn marks to prove it.  I would liken it to say that I'm almost a tortilla pro!  He's lucky I like him a little bit.  ;)

See?  I'm still boring.  I didn't say that this blog post would entertain you.  I just hope to blog a bit more often now.  It's a nice outlet, so I'm hoping you don't have to get too much negativity out of me, though there's sure to be some.  What can I say?  I write the most when I'm pissed off about something. Meh, it is what it is.

My nephew, Easton.  LOVE him and his lil' pig nose.
Want to be left with total cuteness?  Okay... you asked for it.  It's my lil' man boy!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I'm Working On It...

You know, the thing that still gets me about the breakup with Jack is how he made me look to his family and friends.
I tried so hard to make that relationship work.  I've tried so hard to save his name and not make him look like the ass he is.  I have so many secrets about the things he put me through and what he did to me and it will all remain that way.  I'm not going to make people hate him because, in spite of it all, I still have respect for him.
Jack's family is HIS family.  They don't need to hear the reasons we really broke up, because they are his family and they NEED to be on his side.  I won't take that from him or sway it in any way.
In spite of what they think, I've always loved and respected Jack's family, even when he didn't.  What really pains me though is his grandmother.  This is a woman who I instantly loved and wanted to be a part of my life forever.  She literally wishes me dead now.  I don't know what Jack said to her but based on what he has said to me, it can't be nice.
I just hate knowing the lies are out there and still coming back to haunt me when the truth is so much worse.
I'm not denying my part in the demise of the relationship.  I know I was a huge bitch over the last few months.  I know I became emotionless and uncaring.  It was the only way I could deal with the situation without a daily breakdown.
I'm still not going to spout off negativity about Jack.  It's not my place and I wish him the best.  I really do.  I just wish he didn't have to take me down in order to build himself up.
Do I still miss him at times, in spite of all of the negativity? Absolutely.  He has a lot of great traits.  Do I miss his family?  All the time.  Do I miss his friends?  Yep... Even those assholes.
I'm over the loss of the relationship with Jack... I just can't seem to get over losing so many relationships at once.

Monday, October 03, 2011

New Phone

What I would like to know is how anyone ever lived without swype.  I just got my new phone yesterday and I'm already addicted to swyping.  I can't help it. 

That's all I'm blogging for.  Oh yeah, and I got the blogger app on my phone, so I thought I'd best test it out.  ;)

What's that?  You'd like to see the first picture ever taken on my new phone?  Okay, but be prepared for total cuteness...

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